So I am incredibly curious to know if there are other moms out there that fail as often as I do? It is nearly impossible to establish the stable image I strive for when I am constantly forgetting appointments, am late, and confuse dates. And it is not for lack of trying–I live for my kids! I have no social life, so there can be no confusion that I am spending time or energy doing anything other than feeding, cleaning up after, mediating, and driving my kids all over. And yet, some how, on their first day back from Christmas vacation, I screw it up. I SWEAR I had gotten a text and call from the school at the beginning of vacation stating their first day back was going to be 2 hours late due to a teacher in service….looking back, maybe I was mistaken? Well, obviously I was, because at 7:30 this morning I get a call from the mother of the little boy I take care of during the day saying the bus is sitting at the end of the driveway waiting for us….and all my kids are still in bed. CRAAAPPP! I managed to get everyone to school but how do I recover from that without seeming like a complete airhead? Maybe I need to just accept it! I wish I could say it were an isolated incident…I guess I can say it was the first time the kids missed the bus! That’s something. So enlighten me, please! Cause so many moms out there seem like they have some little secret that I was not privy to when I had my children. I would love to appear together, organized, and well prepared–more than that, I would actually love to BE those things! Is this just how it is when a woman has five children? I would love to hear from some other moms with several children. I know several large families but if they have the same struggles I do, they won’t admit it. And I get the reason why….I hate that judgemental look, that feeling that I failed my kids (granted, they were just happy they didn’t have to ride the bus this morning) yet again in some small way. I swear I am a reasonably intelligent person so why do I feel like that respect of being a together mom constantly eludes me?